Why I started blogging...

 
To be quite honest, I really had no clue what blogging means, and I still really don't. Maybe I should look it up 

since if I call myself something, I should at least know what it means.

Last night someone asked me why I decided to start a blog. Now I don't know what a blog is but what I do 

know is why I want to blog. I've had people tell me I'm too overanalytical, I think too much, why can't I just 

relax and stop thinking so much. I thus concluded that thinking too much had to be a negative thing so I would 

bury myself in activities to calm my "overactive" mind. People who know me know I am always on the go, 

always here, there and everywhere, always up to something. Growing up I always had friends over, where I 

lived on Woodford Street was a hub mainly because of the accessibility of this location to Coconuts, Queens 

Park Savannah and the Stadium, all popular party and concert locations for teenagers in my hayday. I thought 

this would help me run away from my thoughts. I guess a line in Bob Marley's song "Running Away" has always 

stuck in my head "Yuh running and yuh running and yuh running away but yuh cah run away from yourself". 

That's the Trini dialect version lol. But seriously I always had something to do to keep my mind from thinking. 

So lo and behold my son moved back to Trinidad and now I have so much free time I don't know what to do 

with myself. I ran and ran but guess what my mind has finally caught up to me. There's only so far that a 

person can possibly run and not collapse in exhaustion. So after years of constantly being surrounded by 

people and activities, I was forced into a situation where I had no choice but to be alone. I realized that I was 

spinning top in mud as they put it. I had to figure out what my next move was going to be, how I would move 

forward from where I was stuck. 

As a parent, most times we neglect ourselves, our desires, our lives for the sake of our kids. This is what any 

good parent tends to do. But we also need nurturing so we can replenish ourselves and have the strength to 

give to our kids who are ever dependent on us for their survival and growth. 

That's what I had done for the past 3 years that I had been raising Ezekiel basically as a single parent because 

his dad and all of my family live in Trinidad. So now that he lives with his dad, I actually have time, something 

I had forgotten existed. I have had to make some tough decisions in my life, sending him to live with his dad 

being a major one, but that's a story for a whole other blog wink wink. 

The other tough choice I had to make which also coincided with his return home was to let go of the people 

and things in my life that were holding me back, that weren't allowing or rather encouraging me to grow and 

blossom. So I asked for the strength and clarity of mind in making the decisions that I always knew deep down 

inside I had to make. 

And the funny thing is once I made the decision it is as if a path cleared and all of a sudden opportunities 

came my way that I wouldn't have dreamed possible, my creative juices started flowing, I discovered what I 

enjoy doing, what I'm good at, what I believe is a part of my destiny and self actualization. 

Sometimes we need to let go of the old to make room for the new. Its impossible to cram the new into a space 

that is cluttered and crowded with the old. 

So I let go...and I opened my mind, heart and soul to ushering in the new. And it has been such a wonderful 

experience. The people I now choose to have in my life are all positive, uplifting, motivating, and add to the 

richness of my life. I am truly blessed to call them my friends. 

So back to the topic at hand, yes my mind is overthinking lol. In this world where there is so much negativity 

and things that get us down, I decided to use my blog as a way to talk about what is good, pure and positive 

in the world. So I choose to use this forum in addition to sharing insight into my mind, as a means to feature 

some of the people that I truly admire for their talent and strength of character. 

In this world where technology has begun to replace human interaction we now live as separate individuals 

rather than a race united by the common thread of humanity. My blog also seeks to show how much 

more we actually have in common with each other as human beings. 

Very often the interaction we have with people is so limited that we have many misconceptions about those around us. 

I know this from personal experience where I myself have been judged solely on bits and pieces of what people see 

of me. Through my " Up close and personal series ", I've been really getting to know people on a level that I would have 

never known had I not taken the time to find out about who they really are. 

And sometimes that's all we have to do, stop for a minute and just take the time to get to know and experience 

people below the surface and you will be pleasantly surprised at what you will find.